Moon the Wolf

I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
I'ts time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

-Ryan Cabrera

I know, I have been dragged to the realm of the reality TV junkies... It's not bad, but after watching 9 seasons of Survivor, it becomes boring and predictable even if there are twists... Sorry Burnett! But as bored as I am, I'm still hooked... wah! This season, it's go Ulong specifically, Steph and Bobby Jon since Jeff was voted out last week! Too bad, he is such an eye candy!

The Amazing Race have been pushing my adrenaline up since it's first season and of course my most fave team of all, FLO and Zach... and they won!!! But this season, it has become more exciting with the inclusion of Rob and Amber (yes from Survivor) to its roster of teams. I hope they win! Go get another million!

And American Idol this year is also very good! I personally root for Mario Vazquez above all (for obvious reason). Also Anthony Federov, Constantine Maroulis, Mikhala Gordon, Lindsey Cardinale and Carrie Underwood... Go, Go, Go!!!

The top 12 are in... I got 6, haha, I could replace Cowell on this show! I just hope my bets would go and stay for a while on the show specially Mario, he's such a cutie!

I can't believe that Nikko got eliminated though... He's really good, I thought Scott wouldn't get in but surprise! I think Americans are now voting someone they can relate the most, ie, Scott!

Mario Vazquez Rules!!!

This image is from www.idolonfox.com the official website of American Idol!



Go get the title!

How would you know if you really love someone? Love is very hard to determine... I actually do not know myself if I have ever loved someone. Let me tell you my story...

I like someone (this I know, I really like that person). The problem is that a friend also likes that person. Now I'm not a martyr or anything but I know it's impossible for that person to reciprocate what I feel... But here I am, still longing and wondering what could've been if I pursued it... Of course this is not the whole story, I can't seem to write everything!

I can't believe this. Why o why? There are twelve contestants, many to choose from, why him? I'm really so sad and mad right now kasi Mario Vazquez just quit from AI. He's like the epitome of an Idol, what with his good looks and great voice, nice body with nice moves... He's almost perfect (because nobody is, well except me, harhar).

Waaaah!!! I can't write anymore...

I can feel the vacation closing in as the days go by. All my works and engagements are almost over, stress on almost! I can't wait to hit the beach, although I really don't swim, I just love the atmosphere...

On other matters, you know I still love you... It's really hard to let go of things you once treasured and cherished in your heart! But I know that she loves you, yes, more than the love I can give. Be gentle to her, I know she's really moody at times but she's the only one who can understand you. She cares for you, goddamnit! Are you that dense? Think about it, because I know you love her, deep down...

I Believe in Dreams

Lying in the womb of my lonely room
Thinking of how to reach you
Dreaming of having you

I believe in dreams
I believe in miracles
I believe that toy balloons
Can reach and touch the moon

I don't have the courage and the will
To say the words but I can feel
That what's inside me is for real
Oh and I know someday
I'll have the chance to prove and say
The simple words would come your way
I know I'll have the chance someday

'Coz
I believe in dreams
I believe in miracles
I believe that toy balloons
Can reach and touch the moon

I don't have the courage and the will
To say the words but I can feel
That what's inside me is for real
Oh and I know someday
I'll have the chance to prove and say
The simple words would come your way
I know I'll have the chance someday
Chance for me to say
That I love you
Oh, I love you
Yes, I love you
Oh, I love you
I believe in dreams
I believe my dreams will all come true

Natutulog Ba Ang Diyos

Bakit kaya
Bakit ka ba naghihintay
Na himukin pa
Pilitin ka ng tadhana
Alam mo na
Kung bakit nagkakaganyan
Lumulutang nasasayang
Ang buhay mo
At ang ibinubulong ng 'yong puso
Natutulog ba ang Diyos
Natutulog ba

Ba't ikaw ay
Kaagad sumusuko
Konting hirap at munting
Pagsubok lamang
Bakit ganyan
Nasaan ang iyong tapang
Naduduwag nawawalan
Ng pag-asa
At iniisip na natutulog pa
Natutulog ba ang Diyos
Natutulog ba

Sikapin mo pilitin mong
Tibayan ang iyong puso
Tanging ikaw ang huhubog
Sa 'yong bukas
'Wag mo sanang akalaing
Natutulog pa ang Diyos
Ang buhay mo
Ay mayroong halaga
Sa Kanya

Dapat pa ba
Na ikaw ay maghintay
At himukin pa pilitin ka
Ng tadhana
Gawin mo na
Kung ano ang nararapat
Magsikap ka at magtiwala
sa Maykapal
Nakahanda ang Diyos
Umalalay sa 'yo
Hinihintay ka lang
Kaibigan

Sikapin mo pilitin mong
Tibayan ang iyong puso
Tanging ikaw ang huhubog
Sa 'yong bukas
'Wag mo sanang akalaing
Natutulog pa ang Diyos
Ang buhay mo
Ay mayroong halaga
Sa Kanya

I just got back from vacation, went to the beach but I did not swim. I hate swimming. Just sat there and felt the wind gushing through my face. Tis was very pleasant, I should say, and relaxing. I advice everyone to take a time off from their busy days and just contemplate and meditate... It's worth it!

I go through a lot of stages, a lot of phases but I've never been here... Let me explain... It's kinda weird but I feel like I can feel what other people are feeling. It's like a higher form of intuition of some sort. Although I know it's all in my mind (cause the mind is so powerful, right... now where have I heard that before), but still I feel so strong about what othr people are feeling. Just this day, I felt anxiety and a little bit of anguish from one friend, then sadness and bitterness from another. Then happiness from another. Tis really weird and the thing is I know exactly why they are feeling that way, without telling me...

Eniweiz, I'm really happy for my friend. He was my friend since way back, like grade school and we became really close during our high school days (ah, those days). Oh well, he's now very successful I should say on both aspects (you're thinking what aspects... duh, life and love). He's still studying but already has a job as a fashion editor at a new magazine... and he did interviews with kitchie nadal and alvin alfonso and rafael rosell... and he has personal numbers of other models like brent javier (although I really think he's gay, but still, yummy!)... that's what he likes doing and he's being paid for it... talk about good luck... and he recently told me (not more than an hour ago) that his love life is currently in motion... unlike mine (although I'm really not in the mood for one). I admit, I was a bit jealous because of his success but still, I'm his friend and I'm truly happy that what he wants in life is fast approaching. Basta ba magpapa-inom sya every now and then... heheh!