Moon the Wolf

Actually, I don't have anything to write about right now... I just feel like writing.

I love singing contests and I have just watched S4TSIAM, Christine got the boot which I do not think she deserves... Who am I to judge anyway, I did not even get in the contest.

AI is quite okay this year. The guys are really good and kung hindi lang nag-quit si Mario, this would be the best batch, I would say!

TAR is actually pretty good considering the first Survivor couple is there, doing every little nasty thing they can do... and I love every single one of them.

Survivor actually sucks this season. It has been very predictable, the most predictable yet. I just hope Steph wins it, though I doubt it...

"Love moves in mysterious ways..." Yup, it's true...

I spent the day with him and even got in the same bed... haha. You know, it's really hard to let go of someone you have loved so dearest. The funny thing is that I declared to everyone in front of him that I love him. I mean I blurted out "i love you," and evrybody took it as a joke, I mean I hope so...

It's really funny kasi sobrang hirap talaga even if I tell myself to stop and look for another one, it's hard. It's super true that proximity is the key. Ang funny na naman because I don't really believe in "nagkakadevelopan." For me it's supposed to be attraction at first instance or yes, the cliche "love at first sight." It's not like that with him and now, I'm really finding it hard to let go.

As Sting say, "Every little thing he does is magic." Kahit na he's so immature, I mean I find it cute and appealing. Gawd, what's wrong with me... I'm not usually like this, there's really something in him... I'm just typing na nga lang right now, wala nang cohesiveness ito.

"Kailan, kailan kaya mapapansin ang aking lihim. Kahit anong gawing lambing di mo pinapansin..." A line from an old Smokey Mountain song... Hay, I hope I get by... I mean I know I'll get by.

After my first sentiments, I feel the need to write a second one sa gitna ng init ng araw... So damn hot!

Eniweiz, I watched "A Walk To Remember" last night for the nth time... Sinasabayan ko na nga almost all the lines and dialogues and still I was touched and I cried and everything... Masakit sya talaga sa dibdib... How can something so perfect turn out to be a tragedy. It's hard enough to find perfection or anything close enough to it and when you do find it, it's almost twice as hard to get it. Now when you overcome all the obstacles, and do get it, it gets lost.

Waaahh! The wonders and complexities of life.

Sorry, sobrang hirap talagang intindihin. I'm starting to think na we should never understand life na nga lang eh... Just try to live it if it's really possible...

I skipped Survivor kanina... sana walang magsabi sakin kung sino natanggal...

On more important matters, my first project as the chairperson of my school org is up and coming sa monday. I hope everything goes as planned.

I'm actually on the move here... yeah, I'm moving on... (I think) I don't feel the same for him kahit na magkasama kami almost everyday...

I had a crush on someone from my school, the problem is he's graduating or rather graduate na... He's not drop-dead but he's cute... Kamukha ni Justin dun sa Fullhouse... haha. I tried to add him sa friendster, hoping he'll accept. Sobrang like ko sya, infatuation like... and mahirap talunin ang infatuation, it drives me crazy, haven't felt this way since, well highschool as far as I can remember... damn it!

My first activity as the chairperson is done. It went quite well considering the fact that there is a massive transport strike (the news said it crippled almost 90 percent of... i don't know what it crippled) and some of the graduating students did not make it.

A disaster happened at the end though and I really f***ed up kasi I forgot to check on the testimonials that was given on each graduating student... Ung isa pala ndi nabigyan. Somehow I think her feelings was hurt, considering the fact that she's my friend.

If ever, by any chance, mabasa mo toh..

Leizel, I'm really sorry! I know the damage is done, It's really our fault, walang kinalaman ung blockmates mo. They were really concerned with regards to the situation. There's nothing that can make up for our mistake... my mistake. I can't do anything but to humbly offer my apologies hoping and praying that you'll accept it!

It's so nice to have some time for relaxation after a very tiring weekend. I have started my internship at a government office and it's been very stressful. I just realized that I do not want to work with a 9-hour job.

My true love texted me after countless months now.

Let me tell you my love story. Something no one knew about.

Twas the year 2003. I was a college sophomore when we met.

Actually, since my freshmen year of 2002, he has been my crush. He's gorgeous. Yung kilig na kilig ka tuwing makikita mo sya... It's pure bliss!

I started stalking him... haha. I would know his schedule of classes and stuff. The normal (or probably abnormal) things people do. Then I eventually got his mobile number and started texting him. He was not friendly at all sa text. Suplado.

During that time, he was already graduating (cum laude pa) and moving on to further his studies. Of course I'm disheartened na hindi ko na sya uli makikita sa susunod na semester. I can't explain the sadness. I haven't even met the guy, I mean haven't talk to him personally but somehow, I feel something unexplainable to the human mind.

By the time the next semester was about to start, it was already clear to me that we will never be.

Then he just texted. He asked if I was the one who keeps bumping him on the hallways. Alam nyo na siguro kung gaano ka-pathetic and feeling ko nun. I said yes. He said he wanted to see me. Again, that unexplainable feeling crept over me. I really do not know what to think. Is this going to be something good or bad?

Well, to make the long story short, we became one. I already felt it before and now I know what it is... it's love. I loved him and I will always do. Kaya lang time was not on our side. I was busy, he was busier. His studies prevented us (from my perspective) from seeing each other frequently. I must admit I'm selfish. Gusto ko he will always be there, everyday nagkikita dapat kami. Even though it's against every cell of my body, I have to let him go. I told him I'll always love him, yun lang ang alam ko. Kaya lang, ayokong maging sagabal sa mga panagarap nya. As cliche as it may sound, totoo na when you are really meant for each other, fate will make a way for the two of you to be together. We spent four incredible months together. Plus two for those getting-to-know-each-other days. Six months of my happiest moment. Half a year of completeness. I have found "the one" and I just let him go, ang tanga ko.

I met others. Even fell in love with some. But my feelings for him never changed one bit. It just grew with every second na hindi kami magkasama. Sabi nga ni Hellen Keller, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder..." I'm not sure if he feels the same. We still talk, we still text, we still go out. But not like before. And at present, I haven't had any communication with him for 5 months. I thought he was gone from my heart. Akala ko nakalimutan ko na sya.

Until a message on my phone awoke my sleeping feelings two weeks ago. He texted, "Patiently Waiting..." It made me remembered everything we shared. God, I love him so much!

Hindi pa ako nagrereply as of the moment...

I don't know what to say...